TAKING OVER ME So where do I begin So many feelings within. Inside my mind is questioning me. Something deep down is burdening me. Why do I feel the way I feel? Are these feelings real? I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions changing me. I saw her with him. I held my feelings in. I said I was glad for her. All the while trying not to stir. I refrained from saying anything. But all the while glancing. I idled by her side. Hoping just to share a few words of mind. She talked to me happily, But my emotions she did not see. Why do I feel the way I feel? Are these feelings real? I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions changing me. I feel frustration taking over me. I see the two walking side by side. Within dislike stirs for a man I thought I didn't mind. But no matter how hard I tried, Each glance, each thought stirred something inside. I could sense a fire starting to kindle in me. The first time I put aside my fear, I did it to impress her. The second time I faced it, I stared it down with my anger. I made use of the fire now raging in me. Why do I feel the way I feel? Are these feelings real? I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions changing me. I feel jealousy taking over me. I feel the anger swell within. Angry that with her it's not me. Angry that I feel this jealousy. I never cared before. Why does this bother me? I look into the mirror. The anger I feel fills me with fear. I stare myself down and then glance away. I ask myself what's wrong with me? Why does this fire still burn in me? Why do I feel the way I feel? Are these feelings real? I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions changing me. I feel hatred taking over me. Now dare I say something? This I spent the night considering. I chose to let it be And deny the feelings for her in me. I killed a thousand times. Trying to forget, Trying to purge myself of my humanity, And cleanse me of these emotions burning in me. I wish I could not feel and just be free. Why do I feel the way I feel? Are these feelings real? I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions leaving me. I feel heartlessness taking over me. I think back on all this put me through. I can't deny the anger I knew. Because if I am to move on and be free, Then I must accept that it once was a part of me. But in fear I return, Because inside I still yearn. Again I feel the fire burning within. And even though I know itís a sin, Deep down I want the hatred to win. I didn't think this sensation was possible for me. I feel emotions changing me. Now I want, I let the anger take over me.
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